Greetings Kathryn !
Not that long ago i found out that the way i was thinking had a name

started to look up everything on taoism and behold: there are other people on this planet thinking in the same way !! phew.
Thats how i ended up here and on some other fora spread over the internet

It was all pretty confusing with many diffrent strange terminology (and still is kinda) .. to make things worse every word on itself seemed to have 20 diffrent meanings.
I read about the holy book of the taoists: the tao te ching. In a secondhand bookstore i got my hands on an old copy of the book printed in 1934 in old-dutch hehe.
Ffcourse you heard of it before but i wanted to say that yust as you i was looking for this often mysterious tao and yust as with me comming here will straighten things up and give a more clear image of taoism.
At the moment its a little chaotic here as alot is going on about a new practice called kunlun, many posts have been discussing this practice as you allready may have noticed. When you look up a bit of older posts there are some dedicated on what the tao is and more about how to put it to practice. Im relatively new like you but some guys and gals here know some amazing stuff, dropping by here once in a while is worth it

People here know many intresting links and some have there own website, often displayed in the signature. Also check the personal practice discussion

I would put up a few but yust had to reinstall my pc and lost like a ton of links.
Anyway, yust wanted to say that you shouldnt be confused but take things step by step, yust like you said you where doing allready in your startingpost. It may take a while but the puzzle will start to fit slowly, dont start to study taoism as you study nursery hé

The more you know the more you wonna know, it never ends lol.
Im a noob, there are many people here that can give you more info on meditation and cultivation, i read a few intresting links recently here on meditation, ill look em up later.
I wish you luck with your study and getting more in touch with taoism.
Bye