Lots of weird pasta shapes and straws and little tapiocas, winds, clamps, hard shapes, soft shape have come and gone, I seem to have an extra sensistivity to the chi channel clearing action in my head. None of the kinestetics that I feel regarding the chi are normal sensation of a person.
So I sat and meditated again. And the weirdest thing of all appeared. A kind of squid, a messed up sea anenome came up the left tube and stuck around my left ear and skull. It was kind of part hanging out of my ear, and other tenticles were poking out of my face, and it was squishing around. It only moved around a little, so I was wondering, AGGGHHH WHAT THE F* IS THIS!!!!!!????? By the way, I can feel it, but nothing is actually visible to the eye, nor does my face contort in any way.
What could it be? So I thouht.
a. just another cleaning mechanism, like a mop with disposable zapper tenticles
b. a whole lot of dirty chi, a big friggen multi-pronged glob of crap that was too big to be ejected from my ear, thus stuck
c. some kind of alien or entity not of me. But then again, Zen says every sensation is a guest, while the true self (dharmakaya) is the host.
So I just watched it and tried to clear my mind because if it was filth, then emptiness mind tends to blast it out faster. Did some mantra to appease my fears.
So I went to sleep with this thing, and woke up it was still washing around, and has more movement, sometimes the tenticles break off and fall out of my ear, so maybe its just some kind of cleaning mechanism-mop-zapper-squiddy thing.
Can anyone relate even in the slightest way?
I must blast a hundred of small and large globs of dirty chi out of my head per hour, even when Im sitting in the coffee shop. So I thought people would be getting hit around me, and wiping their faces, like what was that? But no, for some reason the chi dissolves, like people have this force field around them. When the dirty chi hits the computer screen, it makes a noise, when it his the ceiling, it makes a noise, so its really there, and really ought to be felt by people.
